JESUS IC COMING BACK VERY SOON

A LONG LETTER TO MY FATHER

Abba Father who is like You ?

I have been on earth for a while now and i have not seen, nor heard of anyone like You.

Whenever i take a moment to talk to You, there is like a movie playing into my mind and i can remember everything You have done so far for me and your promises come true.

Sometimes it feels so unrealistic, i would say so good, so beautiful that it is hard to believe that You talk to me. Yet You gave me the necessary faith, and opened the eyes of my understanding to see it was really You talking to me.

That peaceful voice would tell me Sabine you're not dreaming, the devil cannot read your thoughts and therefore cannot be answering your secret questions just like i am doing right now.

You re conciliated me to You and to myself.

Father anytime i think about how You have been protecting me...... Oh God i was living unworried, not knowing i was near death's mouth, You showed me in many dreams, You called my Name, but i was too busy pursuing worldly things to see that my own life was at stake.

If i am still here, that is because You said no. Father, being the God You are , being Lord and Majesty, You humbled Yourself to come after the little creature i am out the billions you have created, instead of me running after You. Though You had me aware, but i would not listen,Your Hand, Your Love, Your Grace , Your Mercy, Your Favor were still covering me through this valley of shadow of death.

Father many are gone who were not worse than i am right now, i still do not have any clue which basis You chose on, but like You said, your Grace is sufficient for me.

People claimed to love me and would encourage me to follow them instead of following You. I believed them, and because of that i was not having time for You anymore. I would do anything to please them, in spite of what they would hurt me often. Then this dark chapter of my life came up and suddenly they were all now too busy, to see me or talk to me. I was no longer good for them, being sick and jobless, not good looking, having lost my shine and not being able to serve them anymore like before.

At a point even the closest ones were getting tired of my condition. I was feeling so alone, so sad and rejected, discouraged, abandoned, living in fear as i could feel death was near and it could be any moment from then, but i was trying to find a place into my heart to believe that the game was not yet over.

I then desperately started trying to find my way back to You. I would do it trying to convince myself that i was doing it the right way. I was becoming bitter and bitter and would blame everyone whatever was happening to me.

But oh Lord in Your Mercy, though i would not really mind You, You gathered whatever was left of my soul, completely broke it and day after day made something beautiful out of it, and sent Your Spirit to dwell into me and would watch me all the time.

The deliverance process was long and painful, but i am so grateful that at last i am still here. I remember having dreams, and being the daughter of whose daughter i am, knowing the people i know, i was never able to bring them to life.

Worse, they were fading away day after day. Then i reached a point where i had completely lost hope , i thought to myself what was the point of having dreams that would never come true.

You progressively taught me to completely rely on You which i started doing and in less than a month, You blessed above all that i could ever imagine. You took me to places i never thought i would ever be, made me eat at the tables of people i never thought i would ever meet in my life. You would walk ahead of me anytime i moved, your Angels bearing me up in their hands and keeping my feet from being snared, Holy spirit talking to me and comforting me. And here am i today, people who know all about it are amazed at what i am still standing up and still into the race. They have been surprised as it looked like i was done.

Father who will dare come before my face and tell me that i am too young to live my life the way i am living it now ? That i should forget about Church and service and Jesus and follow fleshy and worldly desires ? Months ago they were ashamed having to talk to me, as i looked like nothing and did not fit to be their friends. Some of them used and gave me up when i needed them the most. And now that You have rebuilt me, all of a sudden they remember that i exist and want me to go and sit with them and drink ?

Where were they when i was sick ? Sad ? Abandoned ? Poor? Not good looking ? Dying ?

Human beings beings want you when you are at you're best.

But oh Father you want us most when we're at our worse.

Lord i am merely a human being and i know that i have never been able to do anything good on my own, but i have taken the pledge and take it again this day, i shall live and serve You all the days of my life. My children shall know and glorify Thy Name. They shall serve and be consecrated to You.

Taking that pleadge oh father i am not relying on my own strength, but on Yours, knowing that the Same God who saved me when i was lost into the World shall forever keep me at His feet and complete whatever He started in my life. He shall keep my Head above the water,both He and i shall not be ashamed, and i will not be the one to put a barrier to His plans for my life. Father as i have voluntarily taken that pledge, no matter what it takes, i belong to You now, so whenever You see me drift away or do things that are contrary to your words even a little, spank me, scold me, punish me like a Father with his child do whatever it takes to bring me back on track.

I shall trust You with all that i am. I asked You to let thy Perfect Will be done into my life.

Dear Father, my heart have i poured out to You through this letter.